Lost our baby

[tigergal]

I posted this on the pregnancy boards:

I have not posted in a while, but I try to keep up with everyone. I did post my pregnancy though.

I have bad news. My husband and I lost our baby. I delivered a baby boy on November 21. His name was Aidan Jared. I was 16 weeks pregnant. Aidan was going to be our second son.

On November 19, I went in for my monthly appointment. I last saw my doctor at 12 weeks and everything was fine. The heartbeat was strong. But not this time. My doctor used the Doppler to hear the heartbeat. No heartbeat. I then had a sonogram. He saw the heart but it wasn't beating. The baby wasn't moving. My baby was dead.

I was admitted into the hospital on November 20. The dr. inserted a medication to open the cervix. On November 21, he inserted another medication to bring on the contractions. I delivered Aidan at 9:30 am. He was so tiny, 3.2 ounces and 6.5 inches long. He was perfect.

The placenta would not come out on its own so I had a D&C. I lost a large amount of blood and almost had to have a blood transfusion. I am very weak, cannot stand, and cannot drive. I came home from the hospital on Thanksgiving day.

I am numb. It took us 1 year to get pregnant. I was on Metformin and Clomid. My husband and son are devasted. My son was looking forward to being a big brother.

I apologize for such a long post. I will continue to read the posts to keep up with everyone. May you all have a wonderful nine months of pregnancy.

[ndinkel]

tigergal-I wish I had the words to take away your pain but unfortantly those words have not been created, just know that we are all here for you.
I am so sorry that you lost your little boy, please feel free to come here and vent, cry, share your happy memories, share your bad days and good days. What ever it may be, we are here.

[debbymc4]

tigergal - I am SO sorry to hear about your loss. You've very strong to have gone through everything you did. Know that it will take time to heal, both physically and emotionally; be kind to yourself during this time. We're here for you. ((hugs)) :(

[tigergal]

Thank you debbymc4 and ndinkel. Your words of comfort mean a lot. It helps to talk to people who know what you are going through. I feel bad for not posting on a regular basis. I should have been there for all of you and now you are here for me.

[debbymc4]

You have NO reason to feel bad. I wish we could do something to take the pain away, but we just can't. It takes time...

[melfab15]

please never feel bad. We all never want to be here but we are happy that we can be here to help and support you. PLease take care of yourself and I am SO sorry for what you are going through. Please keep us posted and let us know how we can help you. You are in my prayers.

[aimee]

I am so sorry for your loss. That must have been so hard. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care.

[tryin'4#1]

tigergal-I am so sorry for your pain- I cannot even imagine having to deliver as you did. I think there are ladies on this board that have had to do the same thing. You are a strong person to even be able to write all that you did. I will keep you in my thoughts, and I am so sorry for your loss.

[BAC38(Brittany)]

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I could have never found the words. I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine your pain and devastation. Did the doctor tell you why something like this might have happened?
*mourning the death of a beautiful baby boy*
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Blessed be both of your sons, living and lost, your husband and yourself.
May time heal your wounds... :cry:

[kadi]

tigergal, I am very sorry to hear about your baby. Did the doctors explain why this happened? Please take good care of yourself and take lots of time to rest. (((BIG HUGS)))

[tigergal]

Thanks again for all of your support. The hospital is running tests on the baby and me. I have an appointment on Monday. Hopefully, I will find out why this happened. I don't know what I will do if they can't give me a reason. Right now, I am blaming myself (which I know I shouldn't do). I have to be strong for my 4 yr old son and my husband. I don't feel like I can be strong right now.