A New One On This Forum

[Carly]

Hi everyone

I've been trying for a pregnancy now for some time and recently was referred to the fertility clinic so you can imagine my joy and excitement to find that I was pregnant and a week later (2 days ago) we told our parents who were equally as thrilled.

However yesterday morning I noticd a different colour that I could not describe after urinating when I wiped so went to the GP who sent me to the EPU. They done a scan and because so early was unable to see anything and did blood tests. Later that day brown spotting with some tiny clots and then this morning some blood and some brown spotting with clots but again only when I wipe. Nothing since for the rest of the day.

The hosp have called me with my blood test results and my HCG was only 13 which the nurse doesn't think sounds too good but I now have to wait a whole week until next Weds when they will perform a pregnancy test. I now feel like because of my PCOS i'm never going to have a baby and even more concerned that it will be down to me that my partner won't either if he stays with me.

I now am just hoping that when i go back next week the HCG is higher and this was just implantation spotting.

Carlyx

[debbymc4]

Carly, welcome to the forum. I'm sorry you have had to make your way here and hope that things turn around for you.

[QueenFroggie]

Carly -- Hang in there hun! things may be sounding a little less than positive right now, but it isn't over yet! You could still be very early, it could just be your body getting ready, alot of women have spotting very early on. But if it is worse case, I am sorry for your lose. :( BUT! Try and stay positive, at least now you know you can get pregnant, and you know what it took to get pregnant! That is so much of the fight with TTC with PCOS. Keep us updated, my thoughts and prayers are with you over the next week, as waiting is the worst part of all the TTC stuff.

[Carly]

Thank you everyone for all your support - My worse fears have just been confirmed I believe as my spotting has turned into a full bleed so I think it's pretty conclusive now. I feel so empty now and numb.

I feel a little bit more positive reading about others that have gone on to have successful pregnancies, so hopefully next time i'll be just as lucky. Strange really because it just goes to show that you never really know what it feels like until it happens to you. Prior to now I always felt that it wouldn't feel so distressing as it is so early on. Now I know different as it was very much part of our family and I was extremely excited although nervous, now I just feel devastated.

Hopefully I'll have future good news to share with you all and hopefully reading other good news stories will keep me positive. People without PCOS have M/C so it could be that my PCOS had no part in my loss.

Thank you again

Carlyx

[bbmk2]

Hi Carly--I'm so sorry. Welcome to our board. You will find that the women on here completely and totally understand how you feel right now. Please feel free to post anything and everything.

[trying hard]

Carly - I am so sorry to hear that. bbmk is 100% right - the women on these boards are amazing and have helped me so much getting through my m/c. You are right too, it doesn't matter that it is so early on, it still hurts, a lot. Thinking of you...take care of yourself.

[kadi]

Welcome Carly. I'm sorry for your loss. I'm sure you will find lots of support on this board. (((hugs)))

[Tawny]

hi Carly, im so sorry to hear of your loss :(
these ladies are great for support
take all the time you need to grieve, its a essential part

Hugs
Tanya

[Carly]

Many Thanks for all your support. It is getting easier as the days progress but still feel empty.

My Fiancee has been really supportive and on hand with lots of hugs but I guess I need to remember that he is probably also hurting. He wants to try asap again but all I keep thinking about is what if it happens again? am worried that it wont be easier the 2nd time and i'll completely fall apart

Carlyx